wait a lil bit longer for japan yea.

i had a rather brutally honest conversation with rachel on msn just now. it took me a long time to come to terms with what i told her. and it wasn't particularly easy for me to admit it all to her. but then again i always said rachel was like my conscience, the voice that keeps me grounded. haha.

i think at some unconscious level, i went into all that expecting an ending sooner or later. i always planned how things would end. and i knew for a fact it wouldn't last. maybe that's why i made the choices i did. i dared not give myself the hope of forever. its a rather empty kinda hoping anyway. shrugs.

it seems rachel and i are rather similar these few days. identical sat scores :p with the exception that she took physics and i took bio. and being little hermits, watching korean dvds. i've been inhaling cup noodles. -.- but stef cass and rach are coming over tmr to bake and do nonsense shit (: maybe i'll start feeling like its xmas time. but it's really gonna be diff without peijie around. grumbles. i miss you jie ):

only you, can make this world seem right

: only you :: the platters :